I'm PREGNANT!
I haven't even gone to the doctor yet, but I have an appointment on the 26th. I called my OB on Monday and made an appointment. They usually wait to see you until you're between 6 and 8 weeks, but because I had the miscarriage in October they're getting me in at 5 weeks, which was the earliest appointment he had available. The nurse/receptionist told me they may not be able to hear a heartbeat that early but they'll run some blood tests and whatnot to "set me at ease".
When I think about seeing an ultrasound or hearing the heartbeat I start to panic. I really don't want to see an ultrasound until I'm past the "danger" period. I'm not even sure I want to hear the heartbeat. I think I'll just let the Dr tell me that it's there when they do it - whether it's at the first appointment next week or a follow up appointment.
Whatever... I just hope everything goes GOOD. I don't wanna go through that shit again. Ever. We're not telling people until we're past the 12 weeks. My kids know and Jessie and Justin know, but no one else.
I had to tell Jessie. How the hell do you explain to someone who you drink with EVERY time you see them why you're not drinking for an extended period of time?! I can make excuses at bowling, going out to dinner, etc. I see Jessie at a minimum once a week, and every time we open a bottle of wine. Plus M told Justin at the bar Saturday night. Justin promised not to tell Jessie, but said he hoped that I would tell her soon so he didn't have to worry about slipping up!
I guess this explains why I've been so damn hungry lately!! LOL! And tired!!
